11:21pm: somebody please be my rushmore.
everything tires me out except the things that should tire me out. does that make sense? this time last week i was at a party that lasted nearly 12 hours and i felt alive. this week is all about pressing the heels of my hands into my eye sockets.
i am thinking about buying a bike this summer. i've not owned one since i was 13 or so, and i think i'm all the worse for it. i live right by a cycling track, i could ride bikes with sophie. we could have a bicycle gang and go find that stream i used to hang out by... if it's still there.

i think i'd buy this one. i could afford it in about a week if i didn't go out or buy any records or take-out coffee. i could go a week without coffee i guess (well, i would make it at home at least) and i would name the bike kingsley.
in any case i'm going to stay up until 5am at least and draw some pictures. and watch rushmore because it makes me feel uncomfortable until the end and a few other times when it doesn't.
i think what i like about wes anderson's movies is that there is always some glimmer of hope even for the people who are sort of idiots, and that kind of makes me feel reassured that maybe i will be ok after all.
Current Music: mountain goats